Mama, Rea and I went to Eze’s today. Tita invited us to come over and we accepted the invitation so that Mama could also get the chance to visit them and meet Eze’s other relatives. Even though Eze and I have been together for almost seven years, it is just Mama’s first time to go to their house. On the other hand, Eze’s family already gave us a couple of visits before.

Anyway, everything went well. Unfortunately, we had to go home early. Mama is not  used to sitting for a long time after her operation last January. She underwent total abdominal hysterectomy and they say it will take a long time to gain full recovery.

I decided to drop by F. Tañedo and order the cake we’ll be having for the celebration this weekend. I ordered yummy crema de fruta and two cakes, one for JR and one for me. Since my godson will be celebrating his fourth birthday, I decided to order a cute Car Racing cake for him while I ordered a plain round choco cake for me. So to complete the order, I had to write down the greeting to be placed on the cake.

For JR’s Cake: HAPPY 4th BIRTHDAY JR, FROM NINANG DAY

Then for my cake: HAPPY 23rd BIRTHDAY JUDY, FROM EZE

..Fooling myself as if he was the one who ordered the cake for me. Too bad that this is another important day in my life that he’s gonna miss. I can no longer remember all the greatest and deepest points in my life that I didn’t have him beside me. Some of the most important were my highschool grad, my colle grad and many more. Thinking about these things really hurt me because I know that I don’t have any right to demand and all I have is the right to feel bad that the most important man in my life is missing an important day in my life.

Well even though he’s always not around, Eze never failed to make me feel how much he wants to be with me but just got no choice. He also supports me in my decisions and comforts me when I need it plus gets mad at me when I’m crazy. LOLZ! I really appreciate all his efforts. But the distance between us really breaks my heart.

What just inspires me to hold on and smile despite his absence is my faith that in just a few more months or a year or two maybe, and we’re gonna spend every day together. We’ll be celebrating our next birthdays together along with our anniversaries. I really hope and pray that we get enough strength to hold on. The 75 months we spent is no joke and everyday that we had all these years gave us a long list of reasons to hold on and be strong.

I know anything can happen and it would hurt to expect and get disappointed. But what can I do if God made me feel this sure and secured? If in case something happens, I will still have no regrets because Eze really helped me become a better and stronger person.

But a huge part of me really says nothing bad is gonna happen to us. I’m confidence! hahahha

But seriously, I’m confident! I really am..