There’s not much to blog about today except that I was really busy with work and for the preparations.. Hmmm.. Nineteen days to go and finally I’ll be Mrs. Cariaso.

So how do I feel right now?

Nothing, because I don’t know. haha

I feel excited that finally, I’m gonna change my surname. (Why? SECRET!)

I feel nervous because I know married life is linked to a lot of responsibilities that are really tough to handle.

And happy of course, because finally.. after more than seven years, Eze and I are getting into the next level of our relationship. I know it would be hard to handle things but I really hope we can handle everything we meet along the way.

Hmmm.. I ran out of words again.. I dunno what made me like this. Lolz.. Just for the record: I do not have butterflies in my stomach YET! haha So please, don’t tease me. Right now I’m still busy with work and thanks for that because I feel less nervous, less excited and less paranoid. Hahaha

Hope to update this blog again soon..

Gotta go to bed now and take some beauty rest. hahaha

To all those who are wondering, the answer is YES! Ezhie and I are getting married next month, on the 10th to be exact. And with this announcement are so many things like my weightloss journey for me to look great on my wedding day. Even though it would just be a civil wedding, every bride would surely want to look great on that white dress.

Whenever I feel fat, my cousins try to play a joke on me to try acai berry to lose weight because they say it is effective, safe and reliable.. but well, I know my condition isn’t serious. After all, these are all jokes.

But with these jokes, I got curious and made a little research about the product, the so-called amazing fruit and got astonished by how it gives hope to women who want to lose weight. Acai berry is not just something for trimming your shape but also a healthy fruit for everyone. If I were to list all the benefits of acai, you will surely buy a bottle of supplement for you. If you have heard about antioxidants and the health benefits they can give, well an acai diet offers a lot more!

Here are the links:

• Visiting Cavite after Seven Months
• MLTR concert
• Ella and Mica’s Birthday Bash (still working on it)
• the 24th of November

Enjoy!

The 24th of November of 2001 is not just about the Summit but also about me and Eze.. That day, seven years ago, was the day when I finally became true to myself and accepted him to be my boyfriend.

Sadly, our anniversary this year is a bit different because I wasn’t even sure if it’s still worth celebrating. It was evident in this blog that these past few weeks were really shaky for the two of us. We have so many problems, particularly the distance, communication, my insecurities and ideals that make our situation worse. I don’t want to write here the detailed reasons behind our problems. The bottom line here is just that I thought this day would be the end of our relationship.

I know it was crazy (like all the other girls who are hoping to resolve their relationship problems) that while feeling hopeless and that this relationship is about to end, at the back of my mind, I’m still wishing that everything will be settled and we could still manage this long distance relationship until we’re together again.

I already had nothing to do at around 11 pm on the night of the 23rd. But still, I waited for the clock to hit 12 am. He greeted me at 12:30 am, the exact time when we became “us”. I was touched, yes; yet still hurt. I replied to his message, but not with an anniversary greeting. I know it wouldn’t be fair to myself if I greet him even though I know how deeply hurt I still am. I’m drowning with my issues..

Trackback: November 23, his mom texted me and asked me if we could meet the next day, go out and spend time together. Having difficulties saying no, I agreed to meet up with her. Morning came and I kept myself busy with all my work. Then 3 pm arrived and it’s time to meet up with Tita in the mall. When I arrived, they were already waiting because I came in late for I had to finish my work first before leaving home. Then she handed me a paper bag that contains two bouquets, one with two dozens and one with seven roses. (sorry for the resolution. I didn’t take the pictures immediately so they are no longer fresh in the pictures) Actually, I knew Eze would give me flowers. I just felt it. But at the moment Tita handed me the flowers, I dunno if I was happy he gave me lots of them or still, hurt.

We had a brief conversation because I didn’t want to share. I just want to keep things to myself. It’s not that I don’t trust her. I just think that would be another torture. After about an hour and a half, Tita and I parted and headed home.

I really can’t believe that I’ve become numb. Before, everything that he gives me means so much to me. But then, I felt nothing. I really love flowers and I appreciate them, yes. I just think that maybe if we were in good terms, he wouldn’t think of giving me flowers.. (he’s not that thoughtful, huh?!) And if he was the one who handed me the bouquet, we would be able to talk more, which is what we really need.

To cut the story short, before the day ended, we finally talked. This time, no more deadlines. Our conversation was full of emotions yet calm and open.. Changes – I’m looking forward to these because if I don’t see them, maybe it just proves that we’re just wasting our time. But still, I’m hoping we could fix things, like what he said. I also hope we could communicate more because I think that is where all our problems originated from. Finally, before his day ended, I greeted him a Happy Anniversary.. I undoubtedly love him.. SIGH!

Now, I treasure the flowers more! LoLz.. I think that’s pretty obvious.

I dunno how this post will feel like. Sorry.

I can’t say anything but sigh! Sigh and another one..

I hope tomorrow I could blog about these past three days that gave me reasons to smile. So many things that happened made me realize that life has a lot more to offer. However, at the end of the day, I still feel the emptiness and this unexplainable feeling that one aspect of my life is starting to fall apart.. or maybe, has already fallen apart..

So after a brief conversation, I checked my contacts list in Yahoo Messenger and looked for someone online who could join me watch the concert. Then I found Cathy, my college dorm mate who’s of course, so dear to me :), and so I asked her.

Then, she said she’s not sure and the other 239ers (the term we use to address our group because our dorm room way back in college is 239) are considering to watch the Michael Learns to Rock (MLTR) concert scheduled on the 22nd of November, just a week after Rihanna and Chris Brown’s concert.

Being a total fanatic of MLTR since elementary days, I made up my mind that I wouldn’t let myself miss this very rare opportunity to hear my favourite songs, LIVE! I still considered watching Rihanna and Chris Brown’s concert but then I decided not to.

So the night came and I had one of the most fascinating nights of my life!

Tere, Di and I were the only ones who decided to watch the concert because the others have their reasons.. Well, I understand them. I just know that the night would be even better with them.

We left UP around 7:30 pm. We had a hard time getting a cab but good thing we still made it on time. We arrived at Araneta in Cubao, a few minutes plus minus 8 pm, bought EyeMax for a better and closer view of the band, found our seats and waited.

While waiting, the three of us could no longer hide the excitement and joy that at last, we will hear our favourite band (our guilty pleasure, as Tere used to call it) sing our fave songs!!!! Waiting still, we were attracted to buy the fluffiest cotton candy we’ve ever seen so we bought one for the three of us.

We ate and enjoyed the cotton candy for a few minutes until we realized that it was no longer making us happy. It slowly turned into a torture! Geez, the sweet taste of the sugar and seeing the size of it.. Gosh! Urk!

Then I saw one kid asked her mom or guardian maybe, to buy her one.. and I said to myself, “Huh, akala mo kaya mo ubusin yan! Akala mo ha!” (You think you can finish that? Huh!) Hahaha

We waited for few more minutes, we still tried to eat but gave up.. (The three of us were not able to finish the cotton candy so we brought it home for our loving roommies. :-P)

At 8:30 pm, they turned off the lights and the concert began! A band went out from the backstage and started performing. At first, we didn’t recognize that it was already them performing on stage since they started the night with a new song and the vocalist Jascha Richter, had his hair colored with something darker. (He had his hair white like an alien, years back)

The following songs were all great and the crowd was really great! Until now, I can still feel the joy of hearing their songs specifically my faves: Complicated Heart, Love will Never Lie, Out of the Blue, The Actor and Wild Women (that made us wild LoLz)

The crowd reached their height of enjoyment when the band sang 25 Minutes. Geez, Jascha even went down the stage, walked down the aisle and had some pictures taken with a very few lucky women! I just wish I was one of them! They also sang a new song that I liked. It’s called Sweetest Surprise and another one that I wasn’t able to note the title. (According to Jascha they just found the song in the internet)

Around 10 pm, they said thanks and goodbyes and left the stage. But the crowd didn’t stop asking them to go back the stage and perform some more songs. The three of us were really crazy then because we feel like we want more of them.. We really wanted MORE!

So after about a minute, they went back the stage, performed a lot more songs and ended with That’s Why You Go Away with a big bang (thanks to the Lead Guitarist :)) Before the song ended, Jascha again went down the stage and still, we weren’t there to have a picture of him because we were sitting at the Upperbox A.

The night was really great. For two hours, MLTR owned the stage! I just can’t write everything in detail. I just know how happy I am that I was able to spend and enjoy the night with my fellow MLTR addicts, Di and Tere. Just CLICK HERE FOR MORE PICTURES.

I wish I could watch some more concerts in the future like The Corrs, Air Supply, Fra Lippo Lippi, David Cook and our local artist Gary V.

Once again, I just wanna say.. I really had a great night!

Sadly, I was unable to reach the zone at my target time for different reasons:

1. I left home later than expected because I wasn’t able to sleep well on Thursday night.
2. I had to prioritize going to IPAMS. (plus traffic and LRT delays)
3. I had to drop by SM Bacoor to buy “pasalubong” because I no longer have coins to use for my fare. The Manong would surely scold me if I hand him a 1,000 peso bill for my 20-peso fare.
4. I forgot about the traffic ‘cause it’s a Friday.

So unfortunately, I was not able to catch those who leave the office at 5 pm. I was not able to see Ate Lhea and all the other inspectors. Sad.. Well at least, I reached the company gate five minutes before 6. (An almost buzzer beater) But the lady guard does not know me (because she was just recently assigned in LSP and I haven’t visited the company since mid-April) so she refused to allow me to enter the admin office since the person I’m looking for is on a meeting. Good thing, Kuya Guard (sorry, I dunno his name, I just know he’s the SO) still recognize me and allowed me to enter the office and bring my pasalubong.

I was so happy to see my former officemates and how they smiled upon seeing me (and my pasalubong, LOLz!) The bell rang and it’s time to go home, but some of them stayed and I had a little chat with them. A part of me felt sad because if only I didn’t decide to leave, I still have those people around me.

Then, after all the Ha-Ha-Has where I became a clown for about 30 minutes, we decided to leave the office and go to Cedz as planned. Cedz is an eat-all-you-can restaurant in Cavite that we love! I was really happy, delighted… hmm, I can’t think of a deeper word for how I felt, sorry I’m weak at adjectives.. All I know is that I love to see us all gather and eat, something that we all love to do.

Click here for a few of the pictures we took in the place in a few days. (These are just the ones I took using my phone. Please bear with the resolution. I haven’t requested for a copy from the others who also took pictures during our dinner. )

Geez, that was really a great night! With all the food and the people so dear to me laughing and sharing stories.. I know I made the right decision when I went back to the place where I used to work and live. I dunno if it’s gonna be the last time I’d be in Cavite. But one thing’s for sure.. that was one of the best nights I had in the said place.

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Our barkada was supposed to have our reunion last November 1 but the plans didn’t push through because only a few confirmed their attendance. (I’m not even one of those who confirmed) So Amy and I texted a few days after and decided to meet up sometime this month because her client for the next few weeks is located here in Tarlac. So the plans pushed through and we spent a few hours chatting and gossiping last Tuesday. Haha (Thanks to Mr. Starbucks who took this pic)

I missed Starbucks and Amy of course. I’m so happy that I was able to go out and meet a friend because I haven’t done this for quite some time now. Of course, I’m not going to blog about the things we talked about. You’d get crazy! I just want to share how happy I am that after knowing each other for more than 16 years, Amy and I remained to be really good friends. Love yah Amy Girl!

I hope to see our other friends SOON!

Now, 50 minutes remaining in Milky’s battery. Oh, Tarelco.. Come on!

After eating breakfast, I went back to bed and slept again. At around eleven I woke up again and went to the mall to shop. Well at least it’s cold in there because they have a generator. Mama and I had our minor early Christmas shopping and this was effective to keep us from feeling bored. I just felt sad because I was not able to find new clothes that I really loved to buy. (Well, what’s new? I don’t buy clothes that do not sweep me off my feet!)

After eating lunch, we headed home and had to face the sweaty weather despite the fact that Christmas is just around the corner. Here at home, I am bored so I decided to make a draft for this post for my blog.

I realized I haven’t blogged about my new laptop yet. Last October 31, mama and I went to SM San Fernando in Pampanga to meet up with Kuya and Dulce and that’s where we bought Milky Haw-Haw.

I bought Dell Inspiron 1525 and upgraded the RAM into 2GB because its OS is Vista and I don’t want to bear with a slow laptop. (Click the image to enlarge) I hate waiting. Haha The features are not that great because I do not actually need one that is super duper fast or with mega amazing features. Kuya helped me decide on which unit to buy and he also did the negotiations at… I forgot the store. I’ll just look at the receipt when I’m not lazy anymore. LoL! (people in the said store already know Kuya because they are the store’s suki already, so we were given a great discount!)

Why did I name my laptop Mily Haw-Haw? It’s because it’s white. Yeah, corny! Haha At first, I just named it Milky. But Kuya told me that I should name it Haw-Haw instead, just like the milk candy that we usually eat when we were still kids. Haw-Haw is the rectangle milk candy in blue wrapper with a picture of a cow. I bet people of my age also know about that candy. To merge our “creative thoughts”, I decided to combine the names so that was where I got Milky Haw-Haw.

Milky is one of the fruits of my blogging journey that’s why I love her. Well thanks to Eze for lending me his old laptop when I was still poor to buy my own. Haha

And thanks to Kuya, Dulce and Mama for the company when we bought Milky.