Well, as you can see, it’s been more than a month since I last updated this blog of mine. I admit it was really a tough December last year.. tough but in a really good way! There are so many things I needed to blog about but they seem to be obsolete now so I no longer have the drive to put them into writing. All I know now is that this month and the following months are going to be a lot busier in a much better way.

To all those who are wondering, the answer is YES! Ezhie and I are getting married next month, on the 10th to be exact. And with this announcement are so many things like my weightloss journey for me to look great on my wedding day. Even though it would just be a civil wedding, every bride would surely want to look great on that white dress.

Whenever I feel fat, my cousins try to play a joke on me to try acai berry to lose weight because they say it is effective, safe and reliable.. but well, I know my condition isn’t serious. After all, these are all jokes.

But with these jokes, I got curious and made a little research about the product, the so-called amazing fruit and got astonished by how it gives hope to women who want to lose weight. Acai berry is not just something for trimming your shape but also a healthy fruit for everyone. If I were to list all the benefits of acai, you will surely buy a bottle of supplement for you. If you have heard about antioxidants and the health benefits they can give, well an acai diet offers a lot more!

Seven years ago, the Tarlac State University Supreme Student Council or the TSU-SSC organized the Student Leaders’ Summit in Pampanga Agricultural College (PAC) in Magalang, Pampanga. It took us a lot of pleases and begging before Mama permitted me to attend the event. Even though I was still in high school then, as the Business Manager of the council, I needed to attend the said event. Eze, was also a part of the council, he was the treasurer.. and that was the reason why Mama hesitated to permit me. Haha

The 24th of November of 2001 is not just about the Summit but also about me and Eze.. That day, seven years ago, was the day when I finally became true to myself and accepted him to be my boyfriend.

Sadly, our anniversary this year is a bit different because I wasn’t even sure if it’s still worth celebrating. It was evident in this blog that these past few weeks were really shaky for the two of us. We have so many problems, particularly the distance, communication, my insecurities and ideals that make our situation worse. I don’t want to write here the detailed reasons behind our problems. The bottom line here is just that I thought this day would be the end of our relationship.

I know it was crazy (like all the other girls who are hoping to resolve their relationship problems) that while feeling hopeless and that this relationship is about to end, at the back of my mind, I’m still wishing that everything will be settled and we could still manage this long distance relationship until we’re together again.

I already had nothing to do at around 11 pm on the night of the 23rd. But still, I waited for the clock to hit 12 am. He greeted me at 12:30 am, the exact time when we became “us”. I was touched, yes; yet still hurt. I replied to his message, but not with an anniversary greeting. I know it wouldn’t be fair to myself if I greet him even though I know how deeply hurt I still am. I’m drowning with my issues..

Trackback: November 23, his mom texted me and asked me if we could meet the next day, go out and spend time together. Having difficulties saying no, I agreed to meet up with her. Morning came and I kept myself busy with all my work. Then 3 pm arrived and it’s time to meet up with Tita in the mall. When I arrived, they were already waiting because I came in late for I had to finish my work first before leaving home. Then she handed me a paper bag that contains two bouquets, one with two dozens and one with seven roses. (sorry for the resolution. I didn’t take the pictures immediately so they are no longer fresh in the pictures) Actually, I knew Eze would give me flowers. I just felt it. But at the moment Tita handed me the flowers, I dunno if I was happy he gave me lots of them or still, hurt.

We had a brief conversation because I didn’t want to share. I just want to keep things to myself. It’s not that I don’t trust her. I just think that would be another torture. After about an hour and a half, Tita and I parted and headed home.

I really can’t believe that I’ve become numb. Before, everything that he gives me means so much to me. But then, I felt nothing. I really love flowers and I appreciate them, yes. I just think that maybe if we were in good terms, he wouldn’t think of giving me flowers.. (he’s not that thoughtful, huh?!) And if he was the one who handed me the bouquet, we would be able to talk more, which is what we really need.

To cut the story short, before the day ended, we finally talked. This time, no more deadlines. Our conversation was full of emotions yet calm and open.. Changes – I’m looking forward to these because if I don’t see them, maybe it just proves that we’re just wasting our time. But still, I’m hoping we could fix things, like what he said. I also hope we could communicate more because I think that is where all our problems originated from. Finally, before his day ended, I greeted him a Happy Anniversary.. I undoubtedly love him.. SIGH!

Now, I treasure the flowers more! LoLz.. I think that’s pretty obvious.

I dunno how this post will feel like. Sorry.

Got to make the most out of Milky’s charged battery.. Now let’s talk about Judy Bunny and Amy Cat’s get together last November 11 at Starbucks in Luisita, San Miguel, Tarlac.

Our barkada was supposed to have our reunion last November 1 but the plans didn’t push through because only a few confirmed their attendance. (I’m not even one of those who confirmed) So Amy and I texted a few days after and decided to meet up sometime this month because her client for the next few weeks is located here in Tarlac. So the plans pushed through and we spent a few hours chatting and gossiping last Tuesday. Haha (Thanks to Mr. Starbucks who took this pic)

I missed Starbucks and Amy of course. I’m so happy that I was able to go out and meet a friend because I haven’t done this for quite some time now. Of course, I’m not going to blog about the things we talked about. You’d get crazy! I just want to share how happy I am that after knowing each other for more than 16 years, Amy and I remained to be really good friends. Love yah Amy Girl!

I hope to see our other friends SOON!

Now, 50 minutes remaining in Milky’s battery. Oh, Tarelco.. Come on!

I woke up early today because Mama warned me that there was a notice that the entire city would have a blackout until 6 pm. Knowing there is not much urgent stuffs to do, I didn’t react that much and just thought this would be a really boring day.

After eating breakfast, I went back to bed and slept again. At around eleven I woke up again and went to the mall to shop. Well at least it’s cold in there because they have a generator. Mama and I had our minor early Christmas shopping and this was effective to keep us from feeling bored. I just felt sad because I was not able to find new clothes that I really loved to buy. (Well, what’s new? I don’t buy clothes that do not sweep me off my feet!)

After eating lunch, we headed home and had to face the sweaty weather despite the fact that Christmas is just around the corner. Here at home, I am bored so I decided to make a draft for this post for my blog.

I realized I haven’t blogged about my new laptop yet. Last October 31, mama and I went to SM San Fernando in Pampanga to meet up with Kuya and Dulce and that’s where we bought Milky Haw-Haw.

I bought Dell Inspiron 1525 and upgraded the RAM into 2GB because its OS is Vista and I don’t want to bear with a slow laptop. (Click the image to enlarge) I hate waiting. Haha The features are not that great because I do not actually need one that is super duper fast or with mega amazing features. Kuya helped me decide on which unit to buy and he also did the negotiations at… I forgot the store. I’ll just look at the receipt when I’m not lazy anymore. LoL! (people in the said store already know Kuya because they are the store’s suki already, so we were given a great discount!)

Why did I name my laptop Mily Haw-Haw? It’s because it’s white. Yeah, corny! Haha At first, I just named it Milky. But Kuya told me that I should name it Haw-Haw instead, just like the milk candy that we usually eat when we were still kids. Haw-Haw is the rectangle milk candy in blue wrapper with a picture of a cow. I bet people of my age also know about that candy. To merge our “creative thoughts”, I decided to combine the names so that was where I got Milky Haw-Haw.

Milky is one of the fruits of my blogging journey that’s why I love her. Well thanks to Eze for lending me his old laptop when I was still poor to buy my own. Haha

And thanks to Kuya, Dulce and Mama for the company when we bought Milky.

The way we celebrated Eze’s birthday was different this year. I bought a cake and showed it to him through the webcam and he blew his candle through it as well. I was not able to print the screen while he was blowing the candle. I had a party-size blackforest cake on my right hand and a stuffed toy on my left hand. Geez that was really tough! Anyway, here are the pics I can share.

It wasn’t really easy to celebrate this way. I actually had a hard time stuffing the cake into my mouth. I just wish we would celebrate our next birthdays together.